Our Family's Journey to Peaceful Parenting and Unschooling.
Monday, September 9, 2013
A Plain White Piece of Paper
had this grand idea I would make family scrapbooks for each calendar
year, so I gathered up all the papers and pictures and what-nots which
have been stored in boxes and files for years.
There was a ton
of stuff, so I started sifting through it deciding only to keep things
which had a special memory attached. Josh (8y) had a mountain of
drawings and journal writings from when he attended daycar...e
and public school from age 3 through first grade. I'm going through
them (with his permission of course) thinking- trash, trash, trash,
trash, Hmmmm, maybe I'll keep this, trash, trash, trash. It wasn't that
they weren't great, they just held no sentimental value to either of us.
Then I came to Bug's things (he's 2y), and found a plain
white piece of paper with little cuts along each edge. Of course I'd be
keeping this! I remember sitting with him patiently while he figured out
how to work the scissors, using both hands. He wanted me to hold the
paper up for him while he figured out the right angle for the scissors.
I'll never forget the concentration on his face or how excited he was
when he got into a groove.
That's when I realized, the reason I
kept almost nothing from five years of Josh's life is because I wasn't
there. I wasn't there with him to share experiences, to witness his
discoveries, to make those memories. I was working. Money needed to be
made, but I will never get those years with him back. My heart aches for
them. I imagine it always will.